第65章

Butthereisnotimefixed；perhapsto-morrow，orwheneveryourspiritsarecomposedenough。Forthepresentyouhaveonlytotranquilliseyourself。Checkthesetears；

theydobutexhaustyou。If，asIamwillingtosuppose，youwishtoshewmeanyobservance，youwillnotgivewaytotheseemotions，butendeavourtoreasonyourselfintoastrongerframeofmind。Iadviseyoutogoout：

theairwilldoyougood；gooutforanhouronthegravel；

youwillhavetheshrubberytoyourself，andwillbethebetterforairandexercise。And，Fanny“(turningbackagainforamoment)，“Ishallmakenomentionbelowofwhathaspassed；IshallnoteventellyourauntBertram。

Thereisnooccasionforspreadingthedisappointment；

saynothingaboutityourself。“

Thiswasanordertobemostjoyfullyobeyed；thiswasanactofkindnesswhichFannyfeltatherheart。

TobesparedfromherauntNorris’sinterminablereproaches!heleftherinaglowofgratitude。

Anythingmightbebearableratherthansuchreproaches。

EventoseeMr。Crawfordwouldbelessoverpowering。

Shewalkedoutdirectly，asherunclerecommended，andfollowedhisadvicethroughout，asfarasshecould；

didcheckhertears；didearnestlytrytocomposeherspiritsandstrengthenhermind。Shewishedtoprovetohimthatshediddesirehiscomfort，andsoughttoregainhisfavour；

andhehadgivenheranotherstrongmotiveforexertion，inkeepingthewholeaffairfromtheknowledgeofheraunts。

Nottoexcitesuspicionbyherlookormannerwasnowanobjectworthattaining；andshefeltequaltoalmostanythingthatmightsaveherfromherauntNorris。

Shewasstruck，quitestruck，when，onreturningfromherwalkandgoingintotheEastroomagain，thefirstthingwhichcaughthereyewasafirelightedandburning。

Afire!itseemedtoomuch；justatthattimetobegivinghersuchanindulgencewasexcitingevenpainfulgratitude。

ShewonderedthatSirThomascouldhaveleisuretothinkofsuchatrifleagain；butshesoonfound，fromthevoluntaryinformationofthehousemaid，whocameintoattendit，thatsoitwastobeeveryday。SirThomashadgivenordersforit。

“Imustbeabrute，indeed，ifIcanbereallyungrateful!“

saidshe，insoliloquy。“Heavendefendmefrombeingungrateful!“

Shesawnothingmoreofheruncle，norofherauntNorris，tilltheymetatdinner。Heruncle’sbehaviourtoherwasthenasnearlyaspossiblewhatithadbeenbefore；

shewassurehedidnotmeanthereshouldbeanychange，andthatitwasonlyherownconsciencethatcouldfancyany；

butherauntwassoonquarrellingwithher；andwhenshefoundhowmuchandhowunpleasantlyherhavingonlywalkedoutwithoutheraunt’sknowledgecouldbedwelton，shefeltallthereasonshehadtoblessthekindnesswhichsavedherfromthesamespiritofreproach，exertedonamoremomentoussubject。

“IfIhadknownyouweregoingout，Ishouldhavegotyoujusttogoasfara

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