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ofwhichshehadbeenacollectorfromthefirsthourofhercommandingashilling——herwriting-desk，andherworksofcharityandingenuity，wereallwithinherreach；

orifindisposedforemployment，ifnothingbutmusingwoulddo，shecouldscarcelyseeanobjectinthatroomwhichhadnotaninterestingremembranceconnectedwithit。

Everythingwasafriend，orboreherthoughtstoafriend；

andthoughtherehadbeensometimesmuchofsufferingtoher；thoughhermotiveshadoftenbeenmisunderstood，herfeelingsdisregarded，andhercomprehensionundervalued；

thoughshehadknownthepainsoftyranny，ofridicule，andneglect，yetalmosteveryrecurrenceofeitherhadledtosomethingconsolatory：herauntBertramhadspokenforher，orMissLeehadbeenencouraging，or，whatwasyetmorefrequentormoredear，Edmundhadbeenherchampionandherfriend：hehadsupportedhercauseorexplainedhermeaning，hehadtoldhernottocry，orhadgivenhersomeproofofaffectionwhichmadehertearsdelightful；

andthewholewasnowsoblendedtogether，soharmonisedbydistance，thateveryformerafflictionhaditscharm。

Theroomwasmostdeartoher，andshewouldnothavechangeditsfurnitureforthehandsomestinthehouse，thoughwhathadbeenoriginallyplainhadsufferedalltheill-usageofchildren；anditsgreatesteleganciesandornamentswereafadedfootstoolofJulia’swork，tooilldoneforthedrawing-room，threetransparencies，madeinaragefortransparencies，forthethreelowerpanesofonewindow，whereTinternAbbeyhelditsstationbetweenacaveinItalyandamoonlightlakeinCumberland，acollectionoffamilyprofiles，thoughtunworthyofbeinganywhereelse，overthemantelpiece，andbytheirside，andpinnedagainstthewall，asmallsketchofashipsentfouryearsagofromtheMediterraneanbyWilliam，withH。M。S。Antwerpatthebottom，inlettersastallasthemainmast。

TothisnestofcomfortsFannynowwalkeddowntotryitsinfluenceonanagitated，doubtingspirit，toseeifbylookingatEdmund’sprofileshecouldcatchanyofhiscounsel，orbygivingairtohergeraniumsshemightinhaleabreezeofmentalstrengthherself。Butshehadmorethanfearsofherownperseverancetoremove：shehadbeguntofeelundecidedastowhatshe_ought__to__do_；

andasshewalkedroundtheroomherdoubtswereincreasing。

Wasshe_right_inrefusingwhatwassowarmlyasked，sostronglywishedfor——whatmightbesoessentialtoaschemeonwhichsomeofthosetowhomsheowedthegreatestcomplaisancehadsettheirhearts？Wasitnotill-nature，selfishness，andafearofexposingherself？

AndwouldEdmund’sjudgment，wouldhi

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