Letters of Two Brides

第23章

Youneverscrupletousethepowerwhichhislovehasplacedinyourhand。Yourpositionofvantagemaybereadinagesture,alook,atone。Oh!darling,howtrulyareyouthemadwantonyourmothercalledyou!Youdonotquestion,Ifancy,thatIamgreatlyLouis’superior。

Well,Iwouldaskyou,haveyoueverheardmecontradicthim?AmInotalways,inthepresenceofothers,thewifewhorespectsinhimtheauthorityofthefamily?Hypocrisy!youwillsay。Well,listentome。

ItistruethatifIwanttogivehimanyadvicewhichIthinkmaybeofusetohim,IwaitforthequietandseclusionofourbedroomtoexplainwhatIthinkandwish;but,Iassureyou,sweetheart,thateventhereIneverarrogatetomyselftheplaceofmentor。IfIdidnotremaininprivatethesamesubmissivewifethatIappeartoothers,hewouldloseconfidenceinhimself。Dear,thegoodwedotoothersisspoiltunlessweeffaceourselvessocompletelythatthosewehelphavenosenseofinferiority。Thereisawonderfulsweetnessinthesehiddensacrifices,andwhatatriumphformeinyourunsuspectingpraisesofLouis!Therecanbenodoubtalsothatthehappiness,thecomfort,thehopeofthelasttwoyearshaverestoredwhatmisfortune,hardship,solitude,anddespondencyhasrobbedhimof。

This,then,isthesum-totalofmyobservations。AtthepresentmomentyouloveinFelipe,notyourhusband,butyourself。Thereistruthinyourfather’swords;concealedbythespring-flowersofyourpassionliesallthegreatlady’sselfishness。Ah!mychild,howImustloveyoutospeaksuchbittertruths!

Letmetellyou,ifyouwillpromisenevertobreatheawordofthistotheBaron,theendofourtalk。Wehadbeensingingyourpraisesineverykey,forhesoondiscoveredthatIlovedyoulikeafondly-

cherishedsister,andhavinginsensiblybroughthimtoaconfidentialmood,Iventuredtosay:

“Louisehasneveryethadtostrugglewithlife。Shehasbeenthespoiltchildoffortune,andshemightyethavetopayforthiswereyounottheretoactthepartoffatheraswellaslover。“

“Ah!butisitpossible?……“Hebrokeoffabruptly,likeamanwhoseeshimselfontheedgeofaprecipice。Buttheexclamationwasenoughforme。Nodoubt,ifyouhadstayed,hewouldhavespokenmorefreelylater。

Mysweet,thinkofthedayawaitingyouwhenyourhusband’sstrengthwillbeexhausted,whenpleasurewillhaveturnedtosatiety,andheseeshimself,Iwillnotsaydegraded,butshornofhisproperdignitybeforeyou。Thestingsofconsciencewillthenwakenasortofremorseinhim,allthemorepainfulforyou,becauseyouwillfeelyourselfresponsible,andyouwillendbydespisingthemanwhomyouhavenotaccustomedyourselftorespect。Remember,too,thatscornwithawomanisonlytheearliestphaseofhatred。Youaretoonobleandgenerous,Iknow,evertoforgetthesacrificeswhichFelipehasmadeforyou;

butwhatfurthersacrificeswillbeleftforhimtomakewhenhehas,sotospeak,serveduphimselfatthefirstbanquet?Woetotheman,astothewoman,whohasleftnodesireunsatisfied!Allisoverthen。

Toourshameorourglory——thepointistooniceformetodecide——itisoflovealonethatwomenareinsatiable。

Oh!Louise,changeyet,whilethereisstilltime。IfyouwouldonlyadoptthesamecoursewithMacumerthatIhavedonewithl’Estorade,youmightrousethesleepinglioninyourhusband,whoismadeofthestuffofheroes。Onemightalmostsaythatyougrudgehimhisgreatness。Wouldyoufeelnoprideinusingyourpowerforotherendsthanyourowngratification,inawakeningthegeniusofagiftedman,asIinraisingtoahigherleveloneofmerelycommonparts?

Hadyouremainedwithus,Ishouldstillhave

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