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Ifellbackonmyside，miserablydisappointedatmyfirstexperienceofmotherlyfeeling。
“Don’tworry，dear，“saidmymother，whohadinstalledherselfasnurse。“Why，you’vegotthefinestbabyintheworld。Youmustn’texciteyourself；butgiveyourwholemindnowtoturningyourselfasmuchaspossibleintoananimal，amilchcow，pasturinginthemeadow。“
Ifellasleepthen，fullyresolvedtoletnaturehaveherway。
Ah!mysweet，howheavenlyitwastowakenupfromallthepainandhazinessofthefirstdays，wheneverythingwasstilldim，uncomfortable，confused。Arayoflightpiercedthedarkness；myheartandsoul，myinnerself——aselfIhadneverknownbefore——renttheenvelopeofgloomysuffering，asaflowerburstsitssheathatthefirstwarmkissofthesun，atthemomentwhenthelittlewretchfastenedonmybreastandsucked。Noteventhesensationofthechild’sfirstcrywassoexquisiteasthis。Thisisthedawnofmotherhood，thisisthe/Fiatlux/!
Hereishappiness，joyineffable，thoughitcomesnotwithoutpangs。
Oh!mysweetjealoussoul，howyouwillrelishadelightwhichexistsonlyforourselves，thechild，andGod!Forthistinycreatureallknowledgeissummedupinitsmother’sbreast。Thisistheonebrightspotinitsworld，towardswhichitspunystrengthgoesforth。Itsthoughtsclusterroundthisspringoflife，whichitleavesonlytosleep，andwhitheritreturnsonwaking。Itslipshaveasweetnessbeyondwords，andtheirpressureisatonceapainandadelight，adelightwhichbyeveryexcessbecomespain，orapainwhichculminatesindelight。Thesensationwhichrisesfromit，andwhichpenetratestotheverycoreofmylife，bafflesalldescription。Itseemsasortofcentrewhenceamyriadjoy-bearingraysgladdentheheartandsoul。Tobearachildisnothing；tonourishitisbirthrenewedeveryhour。
Oh!Louise，thereisnocaressofloverwithhalfthepowerofthoselittlepinkhands，astheystrayabout，seekingwherebytolayholdonlife。Andtheinfantglances，nowturneduponthebreast，nowraisedtomeetourown!Whatdreamscometousaswewatchtheclingingnursling!Allourpowers，whetherofmindorbody，areatitsservice；
foritwebreatheandthink，initourlongingsaremorethansatisfied!Thesweetsensationofwarmthattheheart，whichthesoundofhisfirstcrybroughttome——likethefirstrayofsunshineontheearth——cameagainasIfeltthemilkflowintohismouth，againashiseyesmetmine，andatthismomentIhavefeltitoncemoreashisfirstsmilegavetokenofamindworkingwithin——forhehaslaughed，mydear!Alaugh，aglance，abite，acry——fourmiraclesofgladnesswhichgostraighttotheheartandstrikechordsthatrespondtonoothertouch。Achildistiedtoourheart-strings，asthespheresarelinkedtotheircreator；wecannotthinkofGodexceptasamother’sheartwritlarge。
Itisonlyintheactofnursingthatawomanrealizeshermotherhoodinvisibleandtangiblefashion；itisajoyofeverymoment。Themilkbecomesfleshbeforeoureyes；itblossomsintothetipsofthosedelicateflower-likefingers；itexpandsintender，transparentnails；
itspinsthesilkytresses；itkicksinthelittlefeet。Oh!thosebabyfeet，howplainlytheytalktous!Inthemthechildfindsitsfirstlanguage。
Yes，Louise，nursingisamiracleoftransformationgoingonbeforeone’sbewilderedeyes。Thosecries，theygotoyourheartandnotyourears；thosesmilingeyesandlips，thoseplungingfeet，theyspeakinwordswhichcouldnotbeplainerifGodtracedthembeforeyouinlettersoffire!Whatelseisthereintheworldtocareabout？Thefather？Why，youcouldkillhimifhedreamedofwakingthebaby!Justasthechildistheworldtous，sodowestandaloneintheworldforthechild。Thesweetconsciousnessofacommonlifeisamplerecompenseforallthetroubleandsuffering——forsufferingthereis。
Heavensaveyou，Louise，fromeverknowingthemaddeningagonyofawoundwhichgapesafreshwitheverypressureofrosylips，andissohardtoheal——theheaviesttaxperhapsimposedonbeauty。Forknow，Louise，andbeware!itvisitsonlyafairanddelicateskin。
Mylittleapehasinfivemonthsdevelopedintotheprettiestdarlingthatevermotherbathedintearsofjoy，washed，brushed，combed，andmadesmart；forGodknowswhatunweariedcarewelavishuponthosetenderblossoms!Somymonkeyhasceasedtoexist，andbeholdinhissteada/baby/，asmyEnglishnursesays，aregularpink-and-whitebaby。Hecriesverylittletoonow，forheisconsciousofthelovebestowedonhim；indeed，Ihardlyev
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