第41章

“Youhavebeenoh，sogood！“shewhisperssoftly。Asshespeaks，theearthseemstobesinkingundermyfeet。

Thenshetearsherselfaway，glancesaroundthecourtyard，anddartstoacornerwhere，underafence，aclumpofherbageissprouting。

“Gonow，“sheaddsinawhisper。“Yes，go。“

Then，withaconfusedsmile，as，crouchingamongtheherbageasthoughithadbeenasmallcave，sherearrangesherhair，sheadds:

“Ithasbefallenso。Ah，me！MayGodgrantuntomeHispardon！“

Astonished，feelingthatImustbedreaming，Igazeatherwithgratitude，forIsenseanextraordinarylightnesstobepresentinmybreast，aradiantvoidthroughwhichjoyous，intangiblewordsandthoughtskeepflyingasswallowswheelacrossthefirmament。

“Amidagreatsorrow，“sheadds，“evenasmalljoybecomesagreatfelicity。“

YetasIglanceatthewoman’sbosom，whereonmoistbeadsarestandinglikedewdropsontheouterearth；asIglanceatthatbosom，whereonthesun’sraysarefindingaroseatereflection，asthoughthebloodwereoozingthroughtheskin，myrapturediesaway，andturnstosorrow，heartache，andtears。Forinmethereisapresentimentthatbeforethelivingjuicewithinthatbosomshallhavebornefruit，itwillhavebecomedriedup。

Presently，inatonealmostofself-excuse，andonewhereinthewordssoundalittlesadly，shecontinues:

“Timestherearewhensomethingcomespouringintomysoulwhichmakesmybreastsachewiththepainofit。Whatisthereformetodoatsuchmomentssaverevealmythoughtstothemoon，or，inthedaytime，toariver？OhGodinHeaven！AndafterwardsIfeelasashamedofmyself！……Donotlookatmelikethat。Whystareatmewiththoseeyes，eyessoliketheeyesofachild？“

“YOURface，rather，islikeachild’s，“Iremark。

“What？Isitsostupid？“

“Somethinglikethat。“

Asshefastensupherbodiceshecontinues:

“Soonthetimewillbefiveo’clock，whenthebellwillringforMass。ToMassImustgotoday，forIhaveaprayertooffertotheMotherofGod……Shallyoubeleavingheresoon？“

“Yes——assoon，thatistosay，asIhavereceivedbackmypassport。“

“Andforwhatdestination？“

“ForAlatyr。Andyou？“

Shestraight

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