The Man Who Was Thursday

第8章

"Idon’tthinkofSundayonprinciple,"saidGogolsimply,"anymorethanIstareatthesunatnoonday。"

"Well,thatisapointofview,"saidSymethoughtfully。"Whatdoyousay,Professor?"

TheProfessorwaswalkingwithbentheadandtrailingstick,andhedidnotansweratall。

"Wakeup,Professor!"saidSymegenially。"TelluswhatyouthinkofSunday。"

TheProfessorspokeatlastveryslowly。

"Ithinksomething,"hesaid,"thatIcannotsayclearly。Or,rather,IthinksomethingthatIcannoteventhinkclearly。Butitissomethinglikethis。Myearlylife,asyouknow,wasabittoolargeandloose。

Well,whenIsawSunday’sfaceIthoughtitwastoolarge——

everybodydoes,butIalsothoughtitwastooloose。Thefacewassobig,thatonecouldn’tfocusitormakeitafaceatall。

Theeyewassofarawayfromthenose,thatitwasn’taneye。

Themouthwassomuchbyitself,thatonehadtothinkofitbyitself。Thewholethingistoohardtoexplain。"

Hepausedforalittle,stilltrailinghisstick,andthenwenton——

"Butputitthisway。Walkinguparoadatnight,Ihaveseenalampandalightedwindowandacloudmaketogetheramostcompleteandunmistakableface。IfanyoneinheavenhasthatfaceIshallknowhimagain。YetwhenIwalkedalittlefartherIfoundthattherewasnoface,thatthewindowwastenyardsaway,thelamptenhundredyards,thecloudbeyondtheworld。Well,Sunday’sfaceescapedme;itranawaytorightandleft,assuchchancepicturesrunaway。Andsohisfacehasmademe,somehow,doubtwhetherthereareanyfaces。Idon’tknowwhetheryourface,Bull,isafaceoracombinationinperspective。Perhapsoneblackdiscofyourbeastlyglassesisquitecloseandanotherfiftymilesaway。Oh,thedoubtsofamaterialistarenotworthadump。Sundayhastaughtmethelastandtheworstdoubts,thedoubtsofaspiritualist。IamaBuddhist,Isuppose;andBuddhismisnotacreed,itisadoubt。MypoordearBull,Idonotbelievethatyoureallyhaveaface。I

havenotfaithenoughtobelieveinmatter。"

Syme’seyeswerestillfixedupontheerrantorb,which,reddenedintheeveninglight,lookedlikesomerosierandmoreinnocentworld。

"Haveyounoticedanoddthing,"hesaid,"aboutallyourdescriptions?EachmanofyoufindsSundayquitedifferent,yeteachmanofyoucanonlyfindonethingtocomparehimto——theuniverseitself。Bullfindshimliketheearthinspring,Gogollikethesunatnoonday。TheSecretaryisremindedoftheshapelessprotoplasm,andtheInspectorofthecarelessnessofvirginforests。TheProfessorsaysheislikeachanginglandscape。Thisisqueer,butitisqueererstillthatIalsohavehadmyoddnotionaboutthePresident,andIalsofindthatIthinkofSundayasIthinkofthewholeworld。"

"Getonalittlefaster,Syme,"saidBull;"nevermindtheballoon。"

"WhenIfirstsawSunday,"saidSymeslowly,"Ionlysawhisback;

andwhenIsawhisback,Iknewhewastheworstmanintheworld。

Hisneckandshoulderswerebrutal,likethoseofsomeapishgod。

Hisheadhadastoopthatwashardlyhuman,likethestoopofanox。Infact,Ihadatoncetherevoltingfancythatthiswasnotamanatall,butabeastdressedupinmen’sclothes。"

"Geton,"saidDr。Bull。

"Andthenthequeerthinghappened。Ihadseenhisbackfromthestreet,ashesatinthebalcony。ThenIenteredthehotel,andcomingroundtheothersideofhim,sawhisfaceinthesunlight。

Hisfacefrightenedme,asitdideveryone;butnotbecauseitwasbrutal,notbecauseitwasevil。Onthecontrary,itfrightenedmebecauseitwassobeautiful,becauseitwassogood。"

"Syme,"exclaimedtheSecretary,"areyouill?"

"Itwaslikethefaceofsomeancientarchangel,judgingjustlyafterheroicwars。Therewaslaughterintheeyes,andinthemouthhonourandsorrow。Therewasthesamewhitehair,thesamegreat,grey—cladshouldersthatIhadseenfrombehind。ButwhenIsawhimfrombehindIwascertainhewasananimal,andwhenIsawhiminfrontIknewhewasagod。"

"Pan,"saidtheProfessordreamily,"wasagodandananimal。"

"Then,andagainandalways,"wentonSymelikeamantalkingtohimself,"thathasbeenformethemysteryofSunday,anditisalsothemysteryoftheworld。WhenIseethehorribleback,Iamsurethenoblefaceisbutamask。WhenIseethefacebutforaninstant,Iknowthebackisonlyajest。Badissobad,thatwecannotbutthinkgoodanaccident;goodissogood,thatwefeelcertainthatevilcouldbeexplained。ButthewholecametoakindofcrestyesterdaywhenIracedSundayforthecab,andwasjustbehindhimalltheway。"

"Hadyoutimeforthinkingthen?"askedRatcliffe。

"Time,"repliedSyme,"foroneoutrageousthought。Iwassuddenlypossessedwiththeideathattheblind,blankbackofhisheadreallywashisface——anawful,eyelessfacestaringatme!AndI

fanciedthatthefigurerunninginfrontofmewasreallyafigurerunningbackwards,anddancingasheran。"

"Horrible!"saidDr。Bull,andshuddered。

"Horribleisnottheword,"saidSyme。"Itwasexactlytheworstinstantofmylife。Andyettenminutesafterwards,whenheputhisheadoutofthecabandmadeagrimacelikeagargoyle,Iknewthathewasonlylikeafatherplayinghide—and—seekwithhischildren。"

"Itisalonggame,"saidtheSecretary,andfrownedathisbrokenboots。

"Listentome,"criedSymewithextraordinaryemphasis。"ShallI

tellyouthesecretofthewholeworld?Itisthatwehaveonlyknownthebackoftheworld。Weseeeverythingfrombehind,anditlooksbrutal。Thatisnotatree,butthebackofatree。Thatisnotacloud,butthebackofacloud。Cannotyouseethateverythingisstoopingandhidingaface?Ifwecouldonlygetroundinfront——"

"Look!"criedoutBullclamorously,"theballooniscomingdown!"

TherewasnoneedtocryouttoSyme,whohadnevertakenhiseyesoffit。Hesawthegreatluminousglobesuddenlystaggerinthesky,rightitself,andthensinkslowlybehindthetreeslikeasettingsun。

ThemancalledGogol,whohadhardlyspokenthroughalltheirwearytravels,suddenlythrewuphishandslikealostspirit。

"Heisdead!"hecried。"AndnowIknowhewasmyfriend——myfriendinthedark!"

"Dead!"snortedtheSecretary。"Youwillnotfindhimdeadeasily。

Ifhehasbeentippedoutofthecar,weshallfindhimrollingasacoltrollsinafield,kickinghislegsforfun。"

"Clashinghishoofs,"saidtheProfessor。"Thecoltsdo,andsodidPan。"

"Panagain!"saidDr。Bullirritably。"YouseemtothinkPaniseverything。"

"Soheis,"saidtheProfessor,"inGreek。Hemeanseverything。"

"Don’tforget,"saidtheSecretary,lookingdown,"thathealsomeansPanic。"

Symehadstoodwithouthearinganyoftheexclamations。

"Itfelloverthere,"hesaidshortly。"Letusfollowit!"

Thenheaddedwithanindescribablegesture——

"Oh,ifhehascheatedusallbygettingkilled!Itwouldbelikeoneofhislarks。"

Hestrodeofftowardsthedistanttreeswithanewenergy,hisragsandribbonsflutteringinthewind。Theothersfollowedhiminamorefootsoreanddubiousmanner。Andalmostatthesamemomentallsixmenrealisedthattheywerenotaloneinthelittlefield。

Acrossthesquareofturfatallmanwasadvancingtowardsthem,leaningonastrangelongstafflikeasceptre。Hewascladinafinebutold—fashionedsuitwithknee—breeches;itscolourwasthatshadebetweenblue,violetandgreywhichcanbeseenincertainshadowsofthewoodland。Hishairwaswhitishgrey,andatthefirstglance,takenalongwithhisknee—breeches,lookedasifitwaspowdered。Hisadvancewasveryquiet;butforthesilverfrostuponhishead,hemighthavebeenonetotheshadowsofthewood。

"Gentlemen,"hesaid,"mymasterhasacarriagewaitingforyouintheroadjustby。"

"Whoisyourmaster?"askedSyme,standingquitestill。

"Iwastoldyouknewhisname,"saidthemanrespectfully。

Therewasasilence,andthentheSecretarysaid——

"Whereisthiscarriage?"

"Ithasbeenwaitingonlyafewmoments,"saidthestranger。"Mymasterhasonlyjustcomehome。"

Symelookedleftandrightuponthepatchofgreenfieldinwhichhefoundhimself。Thehedgeswereordinaryhedges,thetreesseemedordinarytrees;yethefeltlikeamanentrappedinfairyland。

Helookedthemysteriousambassadorupanddown,buthecoulddiscovernothingexceptthattheman’scoatwastheexactcolourofthepurpleshadows,andthattheman’sfacewastheexactcolouroftheredandbrownandgoldensky。

"Showustheplace,"Symesaidbriefly,andwithoutawordthemaninthevioletcoatturnedhisbackandwalkedtowardsagapinthehedge,whichletinsuddenlythelightofawhiteroad。

Asthesixwanderersbrokeoutuponthisthoroughfare,theysawthewhiteroadblockedbywhatlookedlikealongrowofcarriages,sucharowofcarriagesasmightclosetheapproachtosomehouseinParkLane。Alongthesideofthesecarriagesstoodarankofsplendidservants,alldressedinthegrey—blueuniform,andallhavingacertainqualityofstatelinessandfreedomwhichwouldnotcommonlybelongtotheservantsofagentleman,butrathertotheofficialsandambassadorsofagreatking。Therewerenolessthansixcarriageswaiting,oneforeachofthetatteredandmiserableband。Alltheattendants(asifincourt—dress)woreswords,andaseachmancrawledintohiscarriagetheydrewthem,andsalutedwithasuddenblazeofsteel。

"Whatcanitallmean?"askedBullofSymeastheyseparated。"IsthisanotherjokeofSunday’s?"

"Idon’tknow,"saidSymeashesankwearilybackinthecushionsofhiscarriage;"butifitis,it’soneofthejokesyoutalkabout。It’sagood—naturedone。"

Thesixadventurershadpassedthroughmanyadventures,butnotonehadcarriedthemsoutterlyofftheirfeetasthislastadventureofcomfort。Theyhadallbecomeinuredtothingsgoingroughly;butthingssuddenlygoingsmoothlyswampedthem。Theycouldnotevenfeeblyimaginewhatthecarriageswere;itwasenoughforthemtoknowthattheywerecarriages,andcarriageswithcushions。Theycouldnotconceivewhotheoldmanwaswhohadledthem;butitwasquiteenoughthathehadcertainlyledthemtothecarriages。

Symedrovethroughadriftingdarknessoftreesinutterabandonment。Itwastypicalofhimthatwhilehehadcarriedhisbeardedchinforwardfiercelysolongasanythingcouldbedone,whenthewholebusinesswastakenoutofhishandshefellbackonthecushionsinafrankcollapse。

Verygraduallyandveryvaguelyherealisedintowhatrichroadsthecarriagewascarryinghim。Hesawthattheypassedthestonegatesofwhatmighthavebeenapark,thattheybegangraduallytoclimbahillwhich,whilewoodedonbothsides,wassomewhatmoreorderlythanaforest。Thentherebegantogrowuponhim,asuponamanslowlywakingfromahealthysleep,apleasureineverything。

Hefeltthatthehedgeswerewhathedgesshouldbe,livingwalls;

thatahedgeislikeahumanarmy,disciplined,butallthemorealive。Hesawhighelmsbehindthehedges,andvaguelythoughthowhappyboyswouldbeclimbingthere。Thenhiscarriagetookaturnofthepath,andhesawsuddenlyandquietly,likealong,low,sunsetcloud,along,lowhouse,mellowinthemildlightofsunset。Allthesixfriendscomparednotesafterwardsandquarrelled;buttheyallagreedthatinsomeunaccountablewaytheplaceremindedthemoftheirboyhood。Itwaseitherthiselm—toporthatcrookedpath,itwaseitherthisscrapoforchardorthatshapeofawindow;buteachmanofthemdeclaredthathecouldrememberthisplacebeforehecouldrememberhismother。

Whenthecarriageseventuallyrolleduptoalarge,low,cavernousgateway,anothermaninthesameuniform,butwearingasilverstaronthegreybreastofhiscoat,cameouttomeetthem。ThisimpressivepersonsaidtothebewilderedSyme——

"Refreshmentsareprovidedforyouinyourroom。"

Syme,undertheinfluenceofthesamemesmericsleepofamazement,wentupthelargeoakenstairsaftertherespectfulattendant。Heenteredasplendidsuiteofapartmentsthatseemedtobedesignedspeciallyforhim。Hewalkeduptoalongmirrorwiththeordinaryinstinctofhisclass,topullhistiestraightortosmoothhishair;andtherehesawthefrightfulfigurethathewas——bloodrunningdownhisfacefromwheretheboughhadstruckhim,hishairstandingoutlikeyellowragsofrankgrass,hisclothestornintolong,waveringtatters。Atoncethewholeenigmasprangup,simplyasthequestionofhowhehadgotthere,andhowhewastogetoutagain。Exactlyatthesamemomentamaninblue,whohadbeenappointedashisvalet,saidverysolemnly——

"Ihaveputoutyourclothes,sir。"

"Clothes!"saidSymesardonically。"Ihavenoclothesexceptthese,"andheliftedtwolongstripsofhisfrock—coatinfascinatingfestoons,andmadeamovementasiftotwirllikeaballetgirl。

"Mymasterasksmetosay,"saidtheattendant,thatthereisafancydressballtonight,andthathedesiresyoutoputonthecostumethatIhavelaidout。Meanwhile,sir,thereisabottleofBurgundyandsomecoldpheasant,whichhehopesyouwillnotrefuse,asitissomehoursbeforesupper。"

"Coldpheasantisagoodthing,"saidSymereflectively,"andBurgundyisaspankinggoodthing。ButreallyIdonotwanteitherofthemsomuchasIwanttoknowwhatthedevilallthismeans,andwhatsortofcostumeyouhavegotlaidoutforme。Whereisit?"

Theservantliftedoffakindofottomanalongpeacock—bluedrapery,ratherofthenatureofadomino,onthefrontofwhichwasemblazonedalargegoldensun,andwhichwassplashedhereandtherewithflamingstarsandcrescents。

"You’retobedressedasThursday,sir,"saidthevaletsomewhataffably。

"DressedasThursday!"saidSymeinmeditation。"Itdoesn’tsoundawarmcostume。"

"Oh,yes,sir,"saidtheothereagerly,"theThursdaycostumeisquitewarm,sir。Itfastensuptothechin。"

"Well,Idon’tunderstandanything,"saidSyme,sighing。"Ihavebeenusedsolongtouncomfortableadventuresthatcomfortableadventuresknockmeout。Still,ImaybeallowedtoaskwhyI

shouldbeparticularlylikeThursdayinagreenfrockspottedalloverwiththesunandmoon。Thoseorbs,Ithink,shineonotherdays。IoncesawthemoononTuesday,Iremember。"

"Begpardon,sir,"saidthevalet,"Biblealsoprovidedforyou,"

andwitharespectfulandrigidfingerhepointedoutapassageinthefirstchapterofGenesis。Symereaditwondering。Itwasthatinwhichthefourthdayoftheweekisassociatedwiththecreationofthesunandmoon。Here,however,theyreckonedfromaChristianSunday。

"Thisisgettingwilderandwilder,"saidSyme,ashesatdowninachair。"WhoarethesepeoplewhoprovidecoldpheasantandBurgundy,andgreenclothesandBibles?Dotheyprovideeverything?"

"Yes,sir,everything,"saidtheattendantgravely。"ShallIhelpyouonwithyourcostume?"

"Oh,hitchtheballythingon!"saidSymeimpatiently。

Butthoughheaffectedtodespisethemummery,hefeltacuriousfreedomandnaturalnessinhismovementsastheblueandgoldgarmentfellabouthim;andwhenhefoundthathehadtowearasword,itstirredaboyishdream。Ashepassedoutoftheroomheflungthefoldsacrosshisshoulderwithagesture,hisswordstoodoutatanangle,andhehadalltheswaggerofatroubadour。

Forthesedisguisesdidnotdisguise,butreveal。

CHAPTERXV

THEACCUSER

ASSymestrodealongthecorridorhesawtheSecretarystandingatthetopofagreatflightofstairs。Themanhadneverlookedsonoble。Hewasdrapedinalongrobeofstarlessblack,downthecentreofwhichfellabandorbroadstripeofpurewhite,likeasingleshaftoflight。Thewholelookedlikesomeverysevereecclesiasticalvestment。TherewasnoneedforSymetosearchhismemoryortheBibleinordertorememberthatthefirstdayofcreationmarkedthemerecreationoflightoutofdarkness。Thevestmentitselfwouldalonehavesuggestedthesymbol;andSymefeltalsohowperfectlythispatternofpurewhiteandblackexpressedthesoulofthepaleandaustereSecretary,withhisinhumanveracityandhiscoldfrenzy,whichmadehimsoeasilymakewarontheanarchists,andyetsoeasilypassforoneofthem。Symewasscarcelysurprisedtonoticethat,amidalltheeaseandhospitalityoftheirnewsurroundings,thisman’seyeswerestillstern。NosmellofaleororchardscouldmaketheSecretaryceasetoaskareasonablequestion。

IfSymehadbeenabletoseehimself,hewouldhaverealisedthathe,too,seemedtobeforthefirsttimehimselfandnooneelse。

ForiftheSecretarystoodforthatphilosopherwholovestheoriginalandformlesslight,Symewasatypeofthepoetwhoseeksalwaystomakethelightinspecialshapes,tosplititupintosunandstar。Thephilosophermaysometimeslovetheinfinite;thepoetalwayslovesthefinite。Forhimthegreatmomentisnotthecreationoflight,butthecreationofthesunandmoon。

AstheydescendedthebroadstairstogethertheyovertookRatcliffe,whowascladinspringgreenlikeahuntsman,andthepatternuponwhosegarmentwasagreentangleoftrees。Forhestoodforthatthirddayonwhichtheearthandgreenthingsweremade,andhissquare,sensibleface,withitsnotunfriendlycynicism,seemedappropriateenoughtoit。

TheywereledoutofanotherbroadandlowgatewayintoaverylargeoldEnglishgarden,fulloftorchesandbonfires,bythebrokenlightofwhichavastcarnivalofpeopleweredancinginmotleydress。SymeseemedtoseeeveryshapeinNatureimitatedinsomecrazycostume。Therewasamandressedasawindmillwithenormoussails,amandressedasanelephant,amandressedasaballoon;thetwolast,together,seemedtokeepthethreadoftheirfarcicaladventures。Symeevensaw,withaqueerthrill,onedancerdressedlikeanenormoushornbill,withabeaktwiceasbigashimself——thequeerbirdwhichhadfixeditselfonhisfancylikealivingquestionwhilehewasrushingdownthelongroadattheZoologicalGardens。Therewereathousandothersuchobjects,however。Therewasadancinglamp—post,adancingappletree,adancingship。Onewouldhavethoughtthattheuntamabletuneofsomemadmusicianhadsetallthecommonobjectsoffieldandstreetdancinganeternaljig。Andlongafterwards,whenSymewasmiddle—agedandatrest,hecouldneverseeoneofthoseparticularobjects——alamppost,oranappletree,orawindmill——

withoutthinkingthatitwasastrayedrevellerfromthatrevelofmasquerade。

Ononesideofthislawn,alivewithdancers,wasasortofgreenbank,liketheterraceinsuchold—fashionedgardens。

Alongthis,inakindofcrescent,stoodsevengreatchairs,thethronesofthesevendays。GogolandDr。Bullwerealreadyintheirseats;theProfessorwasjustmountingtohis。Gogol,orTuesday,hadhissimplicitywellsymbolisedbyadressdesigneduponthedivisionofthewaters,adressthatseparateduponhisforeheadandfelltohisfeet,greyandsilver,likeasheetofrain。TheProfessor,whosedaywasthatonwhichthebirdsandfishes——theruderformsoflife——werecreated,hadadressofdimpurple,overwhichsprawledgoggle—eyedfishesandoutrageoustropicalbirds,theunioninhimofunfathomablefancyandofdoubt。Dr。Bull,thelastdayofCreation,woreacoatcoveredwithheraldicanimalsinredandgold,andonhiscrestamanrampant。Helaybackinhischairwithabroadsmile,thepictureofanoptimistinhiselement。

Onebyonethewanderersascendedthebankandsatintheirstrangeseats。Aseachofthemsatdownaroarofenthusiasmrosefromthecarnival,suchasthatwithwhichcrowdsreceivekings。

Cupswereclashedandtorchesshaken,andfeatheredhatsflungintheair。Themenforwhomthesethroneswerereservedweremencrownedwithsomeextraordinarylaurels。Butthecentralchairwasempty。

SymewasonthelefthandofitandtheSecretaryontheright。

TheSecretarylookedacrosstheemptythroneatSyme,andsaid,compressinghislips——

"Wedonotknowyetthatheisnotdeadinafield。"

AlmostasSymeheardthewords,hesawontheseaofhumanfacesinfrontofhimafrightfulandbeautifulalteration,asifheavenhadopenedbehindhishead。ButSundayhadonlypassedsilentlyalongthefrontlikeashadow,andhadsatinthecentralseat。Hewasdrapedplainly,inapureandterriblewhite,andhishairwaslikeasilverflameonhisforehead。

Foralongtime——itseemedforhours——thathugemasqueradeofmankindswayedandstampedinfrontofthemtomarchingandexultantmusic。Everycoupledancingseemedaseparateromance;

itmightbeafairydancingwithapillar—box,orapeasantgirldancingwiththemoon;butineachcaseitwas,somehow,asabsurdasAliceinWonderland,yetasgraveandkindasalovestory。Atlast,however,thethickcrowdbegantothinitself。

Couplesstrolledawayintothegarden—walks,orbegantodrifttowardsthatendofthebuildingwherestoodsmoking,inhugepotslikefish—kettles,somehotandscentedmixturesofoldaleorwine。Aboveallthese,uponasortofblackframeworkontheroofofthehouse,roaredinitsironbasketagiganticbonfire,whichlitupthelandformiles。Itflungthehomelyeffectoffirelightoverthefaceofvastforestsofgreyorbrown,anditseemedtofillwithwarmtheventheemptinessofuppernight。

Yetthisalso,afteratime,wasallowedtogrowfainter;thedimgroupsgatheredmoreandmoreroundthegreatcauldrons,orpassed,laughingandclattering,intotheinnerpassagesofthatancienthouse。Soontherewereonlysometenloiterersinthegarden;soononlyfour。Finallythelaststraymerry—makerranintothehousewhoopingtohiscompanions。Thefirefaded,andtheslow,strongstarscameout。Andthesevenstrangemenwereleftalone,likesevenstonestatuesontheirchairsofstone。

Notoneofthemhadspokenaword。

Theyseemedinnohastetodoso,butheardinsilencethehumofinsectsandthedistantsongofonebird。ThenSundayspoke,butsodreamilythathemighthavebeencontinuingaconversationratherthanbeginningone。

"Wewilleatanddrinklater,"hesaid。"Letusremaintogetheralittle,wewhohavelovedeachothersosadly,andhavefoughtsolong。Iseemtorememberonlycenturiesofheroicwar,inwhichyouwerealwaysheroes——epiconepic,iliadoniliad,andyoualwaysbrothersinarms。Whetheritwasbutrecently(fortimeisnothing),oratthebeginningoftheworld,Isentyououttowar。Isatinthedarkness,wherethereisnotanycreatedthing,andtoyouIwasonlyavoicecommandingvalourandanunnaturalvirtue。Youheardthevoiceinthedark,andyouneverhearditagain。Thesuninheavendeniedit,theearthandskydeniedit,allhumanwisdomdeniedit。AndwhenImetyouinthedaylightI

denieditmyself。"

Symestirredsharplyinhisseat,butotherwisetherewassilence,andtheincomprehensiblewenton。

"Butyouweremen。Youdidnotforgetyoursecrethonour,thoughthewholecosmosturnedanengineoftorturetotearitoutofyou。Iknewhownearyouweretohell。Iknowhowyou,Thursday,crossedswordswithKingSatan,andhowyou,Wednesday,namedmeinthehourwithouthope。"

Therewascompletesilenceinthestarlitgarden,andthentheblack—browedSecretary,implacable,turnedinhischairtowardsSunday,andsaidinaharshvoice——

"Whoandwhatareyou?"

"IamtheSabbath,"saidtheotherwithoutmoving。"IamthepeaceofGod。"

TheSecretarystartedup,andstoodcrushinghiscostlyrobeinhishand。

"Iknowwhatyoumean,"hecried,"anditisexactlythatthatI

cannotforgiveyou。Iknowyouarecontentment,optimism,whatdotheycallthething,anultimatereconciliation。Well,Iamnotreconciled。Ifyouwerethemaninthedarkroom,whywereyoualsoSunday,anoffensetothesunlight?Ifyouwerefromthefirstourfatherandourfriend,whywereyoualsoourgreatestenemy?Wewept,wefledinterror;theironenteredintooursouls——andyouarethepeaceofGod!Oh,IcanforgiveGodHisanger,thoughitdestroyednations;butIcannotforgiveHimHispeace。"

Sundayanswerednotaword,butveryslowlyheturnedhisfaceofstoneuponSymeasifaskingaquestion。

"No,"saidSyme,"Idonotfeelfiercelikethat。Iamgratefultoyou,notonlyforwineandhospitalityhere,butformanyafinescamperandfreefight。ButIshouldliketoknow。Mysoulandheartareashappyandquiethereasthisoldgarden,butmyreasonisstillcryingout。Ishouldliketoknow。"

SundaylookedatRatcliffe,whoseclearvoicesaid——

"Itseemssosillythatyoushouldhavebeenonbothsidesandfoughtyourself。"

Bullsaid——

"lunderstandnothing,butIamhappy。Infact,Iamgoingtosleep。"

"Iamnothappy,"saidtheProfessorwithhisheadinhishands,"becauseIdonotunderstand。Youletmestrayalittletooneartohell。"

AndthenGogolsaid,withtheabsolutesimplicityofachild——

"IwishIknewwhyIwashurtsomuch。"

StillSundaysaidnothing,butonlysatwithhismightychinuponhishand,andgazedatthedistance。Thenatlasthesaid——

"Ihaveheardyourcomplaintsinorder。Andhere,Ithink,comesanothertocomplain,andwewillhearhimalso。"

Thefallingfireinthegreatcressetthrewalastlonggleam,likeabarofburninggold,acrossthedimgrass。Againstthisfierybandwasoutlinedinutterblacktheadvancinglegsofablack—cladfigure。Heseemedtohaveafineclosesuitwithknee—breechessuchasthatwhichwaswornbytheservantsofthehouse,onlythatitwasnotblue,butofthisabsolutesable。Hehad,liketheservants,akindofwordbyhisside。Itwasonlywhenhehadcomequiteclosetothecrescentofthesevenandflunguphisfacetolookatthem,thatSymesaw,withthunder—struckclearness,thatthefacewasthebroad,almostape—likefaceofhisoldfriendGregory,withitsrankredhairanditsinsultingsmile。

"Gregory!"gaspedSyme,half—risingfromhisseat。"Why,thisistherealanarchist!"

"Yes,"saidGregory,withagreatanddangerousrestraint,"Iamtherealanarchist。"

"’Nowtherewasaday,’"murmuredBull,whoseemedreallytohavefallenasleep,"’whenthesonsofGodcametopresentthemselvesbeforetheLord,andSatancamealsoamongthem。’"

"Youareright,"saidGregory,andgazedallround。"Iamadestroyer。IwoulddestroytheworldifIcould。"

AsenseofapathosfarundertheearthstirredupinSyme,andhespokebrokenlyandwithoutsequence。

"Oh,mostunhappyman,"hecried,"trytobehappy!Youhaveredhairlikeyoursister。"

"Myredhair,likeredflames,shallburnuptheworld,"saidGregory。"IthoughtIhatedeverythingmorethancommonmencanhateanything;butIfindthatIdonothateeverythingsomuchasIhateyou!"

"Ineverhatedyou,"saidSymeverysadly。

Thenoutofthisunintelligiblecreaturethelastthundersbroke。

"You!"hecried。"Youneverhatedbecauseyouneverlived。Iknowwhatyouareallofyou,fromfirsttolast——youarethepeopleinpower!Youarethepolice——thegreatfat,smilingmeninblueandbuttons!YouaretheLaw,andyouhaveneverbeenbroken。Butisthereafreesoulalivethatdoesnotlongtobreakyou,onlybecauseyouhaveneverbeenbroken?WeinrevolttalkallkindofnonsensedoubtlessaboutthiscrimeorthatcrimeoftheGovernment。Itisallfolly!TheonlycrimeoftheGovernmentisthatitgoverns。Theunpardonablesinofthesupremepoweristhatitissupreme。Idonotcurseyouforbeingcruel。Idonotcurseyou(thoughImight)forbeingkind。Icurseyouforbeingsafe!Yousitinyourchairsofstone,andhavenevercomedownfromthem。Youarethesevenangelsofheaven,andyouhavehadnotroubles。Oh,Icouldforgiveyoueverything,youthatruleallmankind,ifIcouldfeelforoncethatyouhadsufferedforonehourarealagonysuchasI——"

Symesprangtohisfeet,shakingfromheadtofoot。

"Iseeeverything,"hecried,"everythingthatthereis。Whydoeseachthingontheearthwaragainsteachotherthing?Whydoeseachsmallthingintheworldhavetofightagainsttheworlditself?Whydoesaflyhavetofightthewholeuniverse?Whydoesadandelionhavetofightthewholeuniverse?ForthesamereasonthatIhadtobealoneinthedreadfulCounciloftheDays。Sothateachthingthatobeyslawmayhavethegloryandisolationoftheanarchist。Sothateachmanfightingforordermaybeasbraveandgoodamanasthedynamiter。SothatthereallieofSatanmaybeflungbackinthefaceofthisblasphemer,sothatbytearsandtorturewemayearntherighttosaytothisman,’Youlie!’Noagoniescanbetoogreattobuytherighttosaytothisaccuser,’Wealsohavesuffered。’

"Itisnottruethatwehaveneverbeenbroken。Wehavebeenbrokenuponthewheel。Itisnottruethatwehaveneverdescendedfromthesethrones。Wehavedescendedintohell。Wewerecomplainingofunforgettablemiseriesevenattheverymomentwhenthismanenteredinsolentlytoaccuseusofhappiness。Irepeltheslander;

wehavenotbeenhappy。IcananswerforeveryoneofthegreatguardsofLawwhomhehasaccused。Atleast——"

HehadturnedhiseyessoastoseesuddenlythegreatfaceofSunday,whichworeastrangesmile。

"Haveyou,"hecriedinadreadfulvoice,"haveyoueversuffered?"

Ashegazed,thegreatfacegrewtoanawfulsize,grewlargerthanthecolossalmaskofMemnon,whichhadmadehimscreamasachild。

Itgrewlargerandlarger,fillingthewholesky;theneverythingwentblack。Onlyintheblacknessbeforeitentirelydestroyedhisbrainheseemedtohearadistantvoicesayingacommonplacetextthathehadheardsomewhere,"CanyedrinkofthecupthatIdrinkof?"

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Whenmeninbooksawakefromavision,theycommonlyfindthemselvesinsomeplaceinwhichtheymighthavefallenasleep;

theyyawninachair,orliftthemselveswithbruisedlimbsfromafield。Syme’sexperiencewassomethingmuchmorepsychologicallystrangeiftherewasindeedanythingunreal,intheearthlysense,aboutthethingshehadgonethrough。ForwhilehecouldalwaysrememberafterwardsthathehadswoonedbeforethefaceofSunday,hecouldnotrememberhavingevercometoatall。Hecouldonlyrememberthatgraduallyandnaturallyheknewthathewasandhadbeenwalkingalongacountrylanewithaneasyandconversationalcompanion。Thatcompanionhadbeenapartofhisrecentdrama;itwasthered—hairedpoetGregory。Theywerewalkinglikeoldfriends,andwereinthemiddleofaconversationaboutsometriviality。ButSymecouldonlyfeelanunnaturalbuoyancyinhisbodyandacrystalsimplicityinhismindthatseemedtobesuperiortoeverythingthathesaidordid。Hefelthewasinpossessionofsomeimpossiblegoodnews,whichmadeeveryotherthingatriviality,butanadorabletriviality。

Dawnwasbreakingovereverythingincoloursatonceclearandtimid;asifNaturemadeafirstattemptatyellowandafirstattemptatrose。Abreezeblewsocleanandsweet,thatonecouldnotthinkthatitblewfromthesky;itblewratherthroughsomeholeinthesky。Symefeltasimplesurprisewhenhesawrisingallroundhimonbothsidesoftheroadthered,irregularbuildingsofSaffronPark。HehadnoideathathehadwalkedsonearLondon。Hewalkedbyinstinctalongonewhiteroad,onwhichearlybirdshoppedandsang,andfoundhimselfoutsideafencedgarden。TherehesawthesisterofGregory,thegirlwiththegold—redhair,cuttinglilacbeforebreakfast,withthegreatunconsciousgravityofagirl。

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